Listening to: Professor Layton theme - Warmth and kindness
Hey guys. I have so much issues on my mind now and I don't know when I'll be okey. So I have to postpone commissions even further, I hate to say it but I have to do it. I'll try working on them from time to time but don't expect miracles.
I lost my iguana Nelissa yesterday. She's my princess, my best friend and I lost her very suddenly. 3 days ago she was fine. 2 days ago blood started coming through her nose, the vets could do nothing but give her fluids and remove some of the blood. And then hope she would feel better. The blood was brown which means it wasn't fresh so they hoped she wasn't bleeding anymore... But she was. The most likely cause was a cyst that burst. It didn't show on her x-ray but it doesn't necessarily do that. The next day she was feeling worse than ever. She had lost the sparkle in her eyes and I could tell she was in enormous pain. So I had to put her down urgently.... In the evening I had a funeral with my family.
I've lost so much this year. Starting off with my cat, who also was my best friend. Then I lost the man I love to someone else, then the dog was put down, then a friend passed away, then a friend broke up with me and now this. In less than 6 months.
Loosing Nelissa has been the hardest loss of them all. She helped me get through my depression by giving my life a meaning. To take care of her. And she was a happy girl. She was my little sidekick... or I was her sidekick if anyone would have asked her.
I'm falling apart right now and I will be broken for a while. That's what I need to do for now. Then I'll pick up the pieces and continue with life.
Thanks for reading.